The Want List....

I don't want to be a sad song anymore.

I don't want to live in this fog of bitterness.

I don't want to be so tired.

I want to pick up feet and not feel like my shoes are full of lead and I can't pick up stride.

I want to forget everything.

I want to feel whole again.

I want this greyness to bloom into colour.

I want to let go of my anger and forgive.

I want to say it's ok, it's just life.

I don't want to struggle everyday to accept that this is the right thing.

I want it to be ok to love him forever, even if he doesn't love me.

I want to allow myself to feel free to touch another again.

I want to listen to sappy love songs and sigh.

I want to say that will be me one day.

I don't want to hope that it will make sense someday.

I don't want to be left drowning in all these unsaid words.

I don't want to be afraid to untangle myself from the memories I have wrapped myself in.

I want a fresh canvas.

I want my smile to reach my heart and eyes.

I want to want You to be happy.

I want to be filled with gratitute for what I have been blessed with in my life.

I want to be less milacious and hurtful.

I don't want to be his mistake.

I want to LET IT GO!

I don't want to cry anymore please.

I want to feel goodness again.

I want to believe in honesty.

I want to believe in trust.

But I think I will just start with believing it's all going to be ok.